今天我用华语写博客。

是我而已吗，还是大家也是如此？
人总是不能知足。
当初的我只纯粹想当代课老师。
当上天赐给我机会时，
一星期教两三天的课，
我就觉得我是挺幸运的。

后来，发现其他代课老师每次都有至少一天前的通知，
而我都是当天才被通知要去代课。
我感到不满，为何我与其他人的待遇不一样？
我开始觉得上天对我不公平。

EPPS 虽然是我所教的三所学校中最干净与舒适的，
但是最忙，感到最大压力的。
因为那里的老师超会投诉，
如果你的班突然很吵，很巧的有老师走过，后果就挺惨。
况且， 在这间学校教书时超忙的。
在那五个半小时中的一两个钟头的休息时间，
我必须尽快地把卷子，簿子改好。
改不完应该没关系，我不清楚，
但我觉得若不改完，很有可能被投诉
然后也就再也不必来了。
PRPS 是最 slack 的。
多数是在礼堂看电影或表演，
上课若不教书也没关系，同学们吵闹也无所谓。
可是啊，这间学校就挺脏，
我不是很自在，老师的座位也让我不是很舒服。
但这里的小学生是最可爱的！那真的是毋庸置疑。
GVSS 不必多讲你也知道这是我最喜欢的学校，
尽管它的厕所是最脏最臭的，
尽管有数不清的脏话，
尽管整个学校那么旧那么丑。。。 （：
这里的食物不是很好吃但是最好吃的，
这里的学生带给我的快乐是其他两所学校的学生没法给我的。

btw i gotta rush!!!
为什么突然说这些？
EPPS 需要五天的代课老师，我当然答应了。
但是很不开心地答应。
我又觉得上天总是不能让我得偿所愿，
为何需要我代课五天的不是GVSS!?!?!?
Nlevels 即将来临也很快就会过去。
这星期不能到我最爱的学校，我大概只剩三星期吧？
九月三日上天让我认识了又另一个特别的学生，
我很感激。
但现在看起来，那应该是我最后一次教他了的。

想当初的我，纯粹只希望有学校请我，
现在的我嫌东嫌西。
我啊，总是要求那么多，还真的是很令人讨厌。
现在我向上天请求：
请让我更加珍惜上天所赐给我的，请让我知足
请让我不再折磨自己，请让我开心过每一天 （：

before i end this, may gvss not call me this week,
so that i will feel happier being able to teach in epps. （：
yay smilezxzxz.

[edit]
Other than bad hair, today was good (:
i think right if i have coffee in the morning,
i will be v awake (duh), hence good mood, hence efficient!
i give myself three claps! (:
BUT THE BAD HAIR REALLY RESULTED IN A BAD MOOD WHEN I GG EPPS.
and i freaking hell left my FAVOURITE comb on the bus.
at the staff room i dug my bag like mad,
then freaking anxiously threw everything out of my bag,
AND ITS GONE. FREAKING HELL.
But i choose not to let this affect me,
i saw this poster on the opp teacher's table, its sth like,
"u cant choose the tasks given to u, but u can choose the way u look at it"??
hahh. ok so the class i will be taking till fri is 2Kindness.
The autistic child here is VERY SCARY omg.
She screams, bites, pulls me. But i seriously like her slang when she calls me.
"Miss kendraaa" Very few pple can call my name nicely! hah.

i like EPPS admin staff most.
She speaks chinese and talk to her v shu fu.
GVSS's too! :D
I signed the usual stuff and today the special thing is
"ok she is our vice principal u follow her up to staffroom hor."
i was scared or wad - cos her outfit isnt like v formal also.
Like mj's ms lai la!
She added, "she recognises u ar, so ask u to come five days for this tcher on childcare leave..."
Say until liddat... Talk cock one la.
SHIT LA I HAVE BECOME SO VULGAR,
under the happy influence of GVSS ahaha.
OH YES ON BUS 81 BACK FROM EPPS,
I MET A TCHER FROM GVSS!!!!!!
But sadly, no students... of cos la so late alr.

Gotta bathe.
My neighbour passed away.
Last yr, one neighbour who frequently makes kuehs for us jumped to her death at 6am.
This taxi driver who lives one unit below, died of sudden heart attack.
He was on the road, on his way to fetch a passenger - he is a taxi driver.
Din like the unit below cos they always complain we v noisy when young.
i always do standing broad jumps and skips alot. at night i think.
we seldom talk but perhaps a week ago we met at the lift.
"ughhhh. oh shit" was the first rxn.
not biased against him, thats my rxm when i meet pple hahaa.
"Oh u started working alr?"
"Ya now relief teaching at schools..."
Then bade farewell, yup that was the last time i talked to him.
i kinda dislike him alot cos he freaking hell smokes alot.
the smoke always flies up to our home
AND I CANT BREATHE AND WILL START COMPLAINING LIKE MAD.
it seriously spoils my mood badly ok.
So now, no more negative externality.
Its only like recently that he started smoking lo.
this yr maybe? cos when young i dont smell it...

Two neighbours are gone.
albeit not someone close to me but i certainly still feel a tinge of sadness as they somewhat grew up with me... ):
So now the funeral is downstairs and dunno if my family is gg for it...

sad hor.
but today, God really made me look at the brighter side of life,
not feeling sad bout not being in gvss,
happily marking the tons of stuff - cos i decided to be nice and mark the students' hol assignments.
Brought home to mark stuff too. But it was done happily...
THANK GOD!
Hope this week will be an awesome and happy one!!

MY(smu business) sending me his grp report proj and i gotta read then bathe.
30 pages but since he ask if i want to read... hmm why not?
oh yes u know when i was feeling upset and bored during sept hols,
upset cos of a tiff with mum,
v coincidentally this boy from PRPS msged me alot of jokes!!!
He has the hp plan with unlimited sms.
He msged to say he changed his no. and i asked who he is hah,
then i didnt even say like i v bored or sad then dunno how cum he sent me so many jokes. damn long ones somemore ok.
bout 10 jokes but i think at least 50smses.
if i free or bored will go count.