A Za-Ba-Lang Of Stuffs.

thinking bout uni makes me depressed/sians.
Partly cos i haven gotten any approval from any,
mainly due to i dunno wad i want my future to be like ):

btw i guess i dun have to mention bour wad a blast my cousin's aka my first wedding had been.
weddings are sweeeeet I LUV THEM.
i teared so many timessss.
i tot weddings have v gd food.
ya they are delicious but one serving aint enuf!!!
i still prefer buffets ((:
but shark's fins buffet is like cruel x infinity!
one bowl enuf (:
u know the host is not just my p sch math tcher,
is someone i really like alot!!!!!
YOU KNOW NTU ESSAY ON WHO INFLUENCED U THE MOST I WROTE HIM OK!!!!!!
Does this give u an idea how much he means to me???
HAAAA WAD THE.
i still rmb at p sch parents meeting i keep asking my mum to see him!!!
My mum keep saying he v gd looking meh... ok only wad...
hahaaa cute seh now that i think of it ((:
k back to topic EVERYONE LOOKED SO GLAM AND PRETTY OMG!!!
Make me stare at wad they wearing...
My cousins have becum so charismatic!
We haven met for more than a decade due to a family dispute!
they dun even recognise me, ok fine we all dun recognise one another,
but they are so frenly ok
THEY ALL HAVE THE x FACTOR AND ARE SO TALL!!!!!!!!
The one married is 31,
the one getting married is 29 (my heart thumppps when talking to him),
the last one same age as us, studying at SAJC (j1 retain or sth).
MY 1.75m BROS LOOK LIKE DWARVES BESIDE THEM OK!!!!!
omg are they like 1.9m... i dunno.
ALL THREE OK! SO TALL! HOT SIA.
k fine tall = hot is a nonsense equation. but they are such nice pple.....
NEW YR WE GG THEIR HOUSE!!!!
they are rich ok! they live in bukit timah.
NEXT YR NEW YR I CONFIRM WUN WORK LIAO!! excited laaaa.
u know, the 31 yrs old is working at HSBC Insurance!!! SO FATED!
shld be the raffles place branch.
the 29 yr old one is OCBC,
AND HE TOLD US, DUN FIND A BANKING JOB, REALLY V TOUGH NOW.
After i heard that, i felt like studying math more!!!!

Let me go back to the uni topic...
Yes upset cos i dunno wads the path God set for me.
i dun think i can survive uni,
seeing how hard my bros have to study. ):
CAN I STOP STUDYING???
mei tian fen jiu shi mei tian fen!
Eldest bro doesnt even study as hard as second bro but easily on Dean's list.
Second bro always looks so stressed must lock himself in the room during exam period while eldest bro just study in front of tv as usual!!!!
GET ME?? ITS TIAN FEN! WHICH I DUN HAVE!!!
bros will say "just one word. LAN3! not tian fen but plain laziness!" sighhhhhhhhhs.

i like wearing nice clothes everyday but i think i will soon fret bout it!!
JUST LIKE WHEN I WAS WORKING AT HSBC!
so stressed over the daily fashion parade!!!!
if i wear ugily i will have zero confidence and a v bad mood ):
im reviewing my choices now.

choice 1: business
why do i desire it so much, i only know the brief prospectus bout it!! yes actuarial science earn alot but u think so easy ar?! (im talking to myself)

choice 2: math
currently wad i want most, but bros' "assurance" of it's too high level i CMI makes me discouraged.

choice 3: chem
omg this is probably sth i dun want most!!! Seeing how my bro rushes his two lab reports WEEKLY and always hearing him say OK TONIGHT NO NEED TO SLEEP. but then again the reports like not tough. is just borrow snrs' and copy =.= i can copy my bro's one which means i also can get 'A' rather easily hahh. BUT. im still afraid of chem.

choice 4: FASS
wad the shit sia this choice. psychology is freaking cool and interesting yes but im not suitable for it i know. i reaaally cant write long essays!!!! sighs. sj dun worry im sure u can do it with ur powerful eng!!!!! :DDD (NOT BEING SARCASTIC OR ANYTHING HOR)

choice 5: engineering
Will i be like HSBC's CY who tot she likes it then after working in the field hates it? )):

OH GOOOOODDDDDDD ITS REALLY TOUGH TO MAKE DECISIONS FOR THE FUTURE RIGHT NOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWW!!!!!!

See, i dunno wad i want ):

The tot of gg back to study rather horrifies me ok.

All the mugging, stress, having a saturated brain.... omgggg.

if only i can just stop studying and be an air stewardess and travel ard the world.....

u know a man from china asked me today where im from cos i can speak chinese v well!

"ni de han yu shuo de hen hao ar!"

i wasnt even speaking w a slang then!

Aplenty of such interesting minor incidents that make me enjoy working more than studying!

Like when they say "thank you soooo much for ur help!"

And when i do the most sales. (im e only part-timer, my sales target is half of full-timers.)

But i cant be earning this meagre pay for the rest of my life.

(Like wad full timers are doing =X)

BUT GRADUATES EARN ALOT MEH. hahaa just earn more la.

it is said that companies are looking for more than just a degree -- eg wad i dunno, U CAN ENLIGHTEN ME!

ohhhh and i just had a chat with clara tong!!!

she randomly talked to me and i learnt alot from wad she told me!!!

i bet she did v well for As but i din ask.

She applied for med but din get thru and she's now in NUS pharmacy.

my first fren in this course!!!

She din apply smu and ntu. BUT DID APPLY OVERSEAS UNIS.

i really like how she knows exactly where her interest lies,

and how she wants her future to be. UNLIKE ME )):

She say if overseas unis accept her she will go there for medicine course.

somemore its indeed less competitive there.

Just that u really have to be veryyyyyy independent.

SO HARD TO FIND STH THAT'S LIANG QUAN QI MEI )):

LASTLY. U KNOW I HAVE BEEN EATING SO MUCH.

SPENT SO MUCH ON FOOD OK.

One day i ate laksa and fish crispy noodles for dinner.

Colleagues have the habit of asking "so wad did u eat?"

When i told them they shocked!

Actually the serving not alot la... to me at least.

Today i ate hokkien mee for lunch (no breakfast cos woke up at 12),

BK chicken SET MEAL for TEA BREAK KIND OF THING (boss treated cos i met her there at BK!),

ten plus reach home i ate normal dinner - rice with chicken/fish/vege/soup, NOW IM SO HUNGRYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

AND YTD!!!

12 plus i ate za cai fan for lunch.

4 i went break. i ate one huge plate of malay rice with cuttlefish/beef/breh-ge-dale (u know the fried potato) when i wasnt even v hungry but i finished it!!

then of cos ten plus i go home i ate again!

I tell u luckily im rather cheapskate if not i can just spend alot more on food!

esp when airport got so much nice food!

I luv having agar agar as dessert!!! its only 45 cents for such a big piece.

EH ITS SO NICE OK!!!! I DUNNO HOW TO DESCRIBE BUT ITS DEFINITELY THE NICEST I HAVEN EVER EATENNNNNNN!

(i haven tried many places' agar agar before anws)

OK off day tml, i wonder wad i'll do... It's 2am exactly.

(WHY DO I NV HAVE PLANS FOR MYSELF!?!?!?!?)